Magic Ball

Ever feel like the world is going to come crashing to an end? Yeah, me neither. Well if you did, you would know what it feels like to want to get everything taken care of in one second. If we were to, in an instant, be able to achieve everything we ever wanted, no matter how hard it is, I'll bet that most of us would take that chance. Some times I wonder if I'm even doing the right thing b y taking my time and working things out. I mean, is waiting for the sun to come out the best way to get a tan? I can't just sit around and wait for my life to start. I want so much for my future, but I'm limited to how much I can affect it right now. Sure I could get a job and invest in something or put it away and save up for something important, but I feel like I need to be doing something physical. If having success today was based on willingness to go out and work for what you want, I would be right at the top. I'm sort of a workaholic. I sometimes take too much responsibility at once, and I can never seam to get everything just right. I get everything done, but they're all lacking in some respect. Like in school, I can take 15 hours and get all A's, but instead, I take 19 hours and end up getting a couple of B's. I know that it's not that bad, but what happens later on when I try to take on too much and I end up living with my parents again? Am I really ready to enter into the world by myself and take my life into my own hands? I'm not sure if I can handle it. I heard a story from my old youth pastor about a guy who found a ball with a string in it. When he pulled the string, his life fast forwarded 5 minutes. He thought it was amazing and wanted to do it again. He kept pulling the string to get class over and eventually got sick of school and decided to give the string one really hard yank and he had gone years into the future. Throughout the rest of his life, he continued to pull the string when times got tough and cheating his way through life. Eventually when he got to be in his 80's, he looked back on his life and realized that he had missed out on everything. He wanted it all to go by so fast that he forgot to live. Life is about working through all the kinks and not taking shortcuts just because it is the easiest way out. I know that I have to wait and work as hard as I can to get what I want, but sometimes I wish I had a magic ball that would transport me through the tough times in my life. Man, wouldn't that be nice. To only live during the good times, but how fair would that be to those people who had to live through it all? Hmmm....